What?

I feel like I'm trying to be torn in two and I'm using most of my energy to keep me together. Such a taxing weekend. Things have definitely changed and they can't go back. And I'm constantly being reminded of the new situation. I wish the fog would blow away and I could see my true path. I'll just have to stay in confusion at least for a little longer. Just being drawn to something that could never happen. So close I can feel it but can never take that last step. My heart rate can't take it much longer. I need something to give.